September 2009
4 posts
Justice
Your Tarot reading drew the Justice card. Your future holds good promise. Clarity and fairness in life will soon lead you out of problems you are facing. A resolution of conflicts will soon lift your burdens
I keep thinking about the Russian. *dreamy sighs*
Anonymous crushes are the worst and the best.
So Tricky
Not only do I miss him but holy fuck, I’m getting antsy for his return. I did not expect this at all. Considering I spent the past week in doubt and denial about it all.
All it took was one email. Tricky men.
I haven’t posted anything in awhile.
Consider this an update. I am alive. Still.
What else do you want to know?
I’m tired and want to sleep but I have two emails yet to cover tonight.
Bleh.
If I didn’t have the dumb today I could brain better.
Cheerio.
August 2009
16 posts
This was a saved post.
When I retrieved it, it was empty.
Saving nothing for a rainy day I suppose.
Two steps forward and one step back… people always say this with a negative attitude, at least you are still one step ahead in the game people!
Any improvement no matter how small it may seem is something positive. Look at the gains made and not the loss, by next week that loss will be forgotten as a new improvement, a new step, a new positive experience happens.
Fuck that one step back...
He asked if I was going to miss him, it sounded more like a statement but the question was there. Surprisingly, my reaction was yes, I was going to miss him. I asked if he was going to miss me. He said yes and I would be in his thoughts.
That felt nice.
It’s not the empty kind of missing either, for one I have tasks given to me, to be completed at certain times. I like tasks they keep me...
Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work. ~Thomas A. Edison (1847 - 1931)
Like fuck I’m letting this pass me by. Fear -you niggling bitch of doubt- be gone. I can and will do this.
So.
This is what it’s like to be done with it all.
*twiddles thumbs*
Now what?
“Do You Sleep?” ~Lisa Loeb do you eat, sleep, do you breathe me anymore? do you sleep, do you count sheep anymore? do you sleep anymore? do you take plight on my tongue like lead? do you fall gracefully into bed anymore? i saw you as you walked across my room. you looked out the window, you looked at the moon. and you sat on the corner of my bed, and you smoked with the ghost in the...
Zombie attack would be the death of us: →
I wonder how much of the tax payers money was wasted in a grant on this?
*rolls eyes*
If someone shows you who they are, believe them.
~Maya Angelou
I first heard this on Oprah. It stuck with me. It reinforces that actions actually back up thought.
I see his actions and I believe him. I believe him to the point now that I no longer care to believe in him.
Wishy-washy and weak is what comes to mind.
It hurts when a person falls from a pedestal, I’m glad I was the one...
What you do speaks so loud that I cannot hear what you say. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Like, seriously. STFU already.
Anyhoo, I’m not sure what it is that I am doing but I’m trying to move into a more healthy direction.
When something starts to affect your physical health, that is a sign that things are not working out so well for you.
I need to look after myself first and foremost right...
Margaret and Helen →
Besties for ever. One of the most awesome blogs out there.
Just because you love someone doesn’t mean you have to be involved with them. Love is not a bandage to cover wounds. ~Hugh Elliott
You cannot acquire experience by making experiments. You cannot create experience. You must undergo it.
~Albert Camus
I know I’m ready, I’ve been ready for a year now. I never had the means to actually go out and do so.
I think what makes it easier this time around is that there is no intense feelings. I am still in control over a lot of areas. I think that is what I need, the...
Let tears flow of their own accord: their flowing is not inconsistent with inward peace and harmony. ~Seneca (5 BC - 65 AD
I’m tired of them falling but they seem to like gravity for some reason.
“Anyone can revolt. It is more difficult silently to obey our own inner promptings, and to spend our lives finding sincere and fitting means of expression for our temperament and our gifts.”~Georges Rouault
I have been revolting against myself and my own inherent human nature. I have tried placing all that I am deep into the recesses of my inner being. If I could hide it so well from...
July 2009
3 posts
“10 things I hate about you poem
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way...”
– Taken from the movie 10 Things I Hate About You. A modern adaptation of Taming of the Shrew.
June 2009
3 posts
While sorting out the vines of my morning glories one day, I noticed how some of the vines would be twisted together, pretty much one strangling the other out to keep growing and climbing. As I attempted new growth patterns and unravelled the mess I drew some parallels between this and people.
It made me think of relationships and how sometimes people can be so involved with one another that they...
I was wondering what the title 7 Pounds meant and what the movie was about but no one around me seemed to know. I rented the movie last night and it was a fitting title in my opinion. Rather subtle.
Only I can do this.
Out of 20 seedling packs that I grew I managed to save four of them. So I transplanted them into an outdoor garden. One died from either my cat jumping continuously on it from the window above or it found photosynthesising to be too much and committed suicide. So then I was down to three. They looked promising. One began to spouts blooms…not the type associated with the...
May 2009
1 post
Totally pointless memory. My hometown school has “March Madness” days, it’s a week of themed days and dressing in costume. In grade 6 when we dressed up for hippie day our Social Studies teacher had us stage a protest in the school office, I don’t recall what our demands were but he had us chanting, “Heck no, we won’t go.” for about 20 minutes.
I’m...
April 2009
11 posts
I was looking through my teen year diaries and was surprised at how often boys were the troubles of my existence. Unfortunately, not much has changed, just switch boys for men. The only difference is, you can’t break up with a lunch time note in your adulthood, the lawyers would probably charge extra for that.
Yesterday it was nice and lovely outside, we found tulips poking their way up through the mulch in the front garden.
Then it snowed this morning, my day has been a downward spiral ever since.
Seriously, I do not know why I have a tumblr account. I’m not the least bit interesting or funny. I’m better in person though.
Dear Rosa Diez,
Back off and get your own email. I do not need your realtor contacting me anymore.
Thank you,
Me.
In my winter dreary yard
If only the sun would come out
To warm the cockles of my heart
The one thing I like about small towns. The past two days I have left my purse in my unlocked vehicle, I have left my house where my garage door did not close properly and my back door was left unlocked with not only my laptop in plain view of the window but also my wallet and cell phone. Nothing taken nor touched.
I trust my neighbours and the neighbourhood I am but I always lock my doors and...
Masturbation could bring hay fever relief for men →
March 2009
42 posts
I bought myself daffodils today. They make me happy and tease me with the thoughts of full out spring. I should start checking my front garden for signs of tulips.
I have my flower seeds picked out and ready to be planted into the little peat pucks that I like to use. Except, I totally forgot to look for snapdragons. I planned on planting a whole garden of them with Johny Jump Ups (violas)...
If I knelt and gave you the world, would you accept it? Or would you turn away and say the world is never enough.
http://files.sharenator.com/letterstogod-s399x7673-... →
Letters to God. Always cute to read.
New species discovered in Papua New Guinea - →
The green spider is really pretty but the other two give me the heeby-jeebies and I always think frogs are cute.
Proposal 2.0 →
This is kind of sweet. It’s kind of nice when someone can publicly claim their affection for their partner without caring who sees it or what they may think.
Comic's remarks on Fox TV sink planned comedy... →
This what happens when you suffer from ‘foot in mouth’ disease and ‘lack of brains’.
“Once in his life, every man is entitled to fall madly in love with a gorgeous...”
– Because we’re funny and beautiful.
Paramount settles Alberta town's Star Trek... →
I’m at the point where I don’t even know why I try. No matter what happens it’s not going to be what I want. Not like that ever mattered and I accept that.
He talks about withering up inside.
I should tell him the stunted leaf is shrivelling down to nothing because he forgot to water the plant.
I’m so tired of choosing between t-shirts and jeans to wear. I wish I had somewhere to go where I can wear dress pants and button down shirts. I miss my button downs. I miss dressing nicely *sigh*…and heels. I miss wearing pretty shoes.